To look for my hat while wearing it
Or to ask where my glasses are with the glasses on
To take no notice of pretty flowers on the side of my usual road
But to notice I really loved the person after breaking up with the person
To take the change and leave the goods behind
To fail to get off at the station I’m suppose to get off
And to sleep past the station again on the way to return
To fuss about the machine that looks broken while the fact is that it’s plugged off
The door that cannot open however hard I push
Incidentally opens when I pull it
To find myself at home after waking up from a dream
Of not getting home however hard I walk my legs
To find my rewritten answers shouldn’t have been rewritten
To run around and around under the huge blue sky
To suddenly appreciate fresh water after experiencing a flood
Not to be able to remember the valuables which
I put away too carefully
Or
To find it unexpectedly
Or while thinking to myself, “I should remember this place”
To forget it again
To forget to drink the tea I made for myself
To be unable to recall the name of an important person
Though I can clearly remember trifling matters about the person
To wish I could do it over like the phrase “I mean…”
Which my teachers used to use so often in the graduation ceremony
But after all, as usual,
And however old I become
I can’t figure out what the most important things are,
帽子を被ったまま
帽子を捜し
眼鏡を掛けたまま
眼鏡はどこだと言い
いつもの通い道に咲いた花に気付かず
別れた後で好きだったと気がついたり
お釣りだけ受け取っては肝心なものを忘れ
目的地の駅を乗り過ごして
後戻りの最中に又寝過ごしたり
電源を抜いたままの機械が壊れたと騒ぎ
押しても押しても開かぬドアが
引いてみたら開いたり
歩いても歩いても
目の前にある自分の家に辿り着けない夢から
醒めたらいつもの自宅だったとか
書き直して提出した答案の
訂正前が正解だったり
大空の下で忙しそうに動き回り
大雨の後で真水が有り難く思えたり
大切にしまい過ぎて貴重品の場所が分からなくなったり
かと言えば
思わぬ時にそれが出て来たり
この場所を憶えておかねばと思いながら
又その場所を忘れたり
自分で煎れたお茶を飲み忘れたり
大切な人の名前を思い出せず
くだらないことだけは憶えていたり
卒業式で先生がよく言った「モトイ」のように
やり直せたらと思いながら
いつものとおり
大切なことが何なのか
何歳になっても分からない
いつものこと
Nagoya Writes 
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